ChimangoonMangolia

Wed, 20 May 2026 20:27:40 GMT

I gave a read to what i wrote yesterday, it seems good, i have to make more corrections on my phone because i don't know how to put an accent on the pc to make it easier for myself. I'm getting headaches when i stump on a wall in the rush of writing something new. I'm got very into the freak circus in a short time, the plot is good, the past is tangled so i'm hungry to keep untangling it. I have my gaara bubu bisde me, is becoming a part of the activity when i use the pc.

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Tue, 19 May 2026 21:47:53 GMT

Reading my previous entry is a good way to prove myself wrong and how, maybe, things can work out in the end. I have to do a commission about this very topic, as i write this the realization hit me. I hit two birds with one rock because killing is a strong word.

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Mon, 18 May 2026 23:40:07 GMT

I feel... broken. Maybe is the realization i may not be in love with my girlfriend as i used to. These hard times, they keep happening, they aren't good, they have just worsened how our situation has been unfolding. I expecting some magical solution fixing our situacion, but what else is to do. I'm scared of being left alone if she leaves, though these past weeks, i have felt alone and she was there. I don't know anymore. I write about my broken heart because what is left to do? We are together, as what? I don't want to text her again, is pointless. I will wait, like a dumbass, for something.

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Thu, 19 Feb 2026 20:30:35 GMT

I missed what is like to learn or revisit well-known or forgotten concepts in theory, just in case or for enrichment. Is nothing particular, just very basic ideas of common knowledge from childhood, and i do get headaches, maybe my brain is full, or i'm not accustomed anymore to learn technical information as when i was in HS. Is has been years since my graduation. Plans are to keep my curiosity up

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Sun, 01 Feb 2026 17:28:35 GMT

Drawing less to nothing, i can't find the energy and i keep on avoiding it. Why can't i have diligence and consistency like many other learning artists? My attention spikes somewhere else just not to my phone anymore, i keep applying airplane mode, is useful. I keep reading, i write, my time is not as wasted as i picture it, i can't draw and that follows my steps like a creep.

If i keep wasting learning time is going to turn into a mess in the near future, i want to be good, or average would be enough

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Sat, 31 Jan 2026 19:20:22 GMT

I got told it was a split in yesterday's therapy. I don't plan to tell my girlfriend unless she brings up the topic it caused it again.

The idea for a job is getting worse, isn't there any place where my abusers will not concur, and i can get to work in? The anxiety disorder is bad, too

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Wed, 28 Jan 2026 21:56:11 GMT

Doing nothing. These days i wasted the time and only switched from my pc to my phone, i want to place my energy where i want it to be again

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Wed, 21 Jan 2026 22:46:32 GMT

I wrote a fanfic, it has been a good handful of years since i have written something properly, and i'm fighting this sour feeling of have done it horribly. I had to translate that stuff, i'm not native, from spanish to english it changed a lot my english is average at best, i did what i could, is been some days and i keep thinking if i did it average at best, comparison sucks i still fight it, i was excited that keeps me in check. I don't know if average is bad for a first time in a foreign language, i haven't written in near a decade. I will strive, keep on doing it, bad is better than not doing it at all

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Tue, 16 Dec 2025 16:30:17 GMT

I made up my mind about a career, i will pursue art regardless of what of it can become in the near future. I decided not to resign myself again because it truly sucks to do it again. I hava to contact my former art techaer and find out about the monthly price of the classes. Is money money everywhere for everything.

The come out of the elections in chile truly scared the crap out of me, what is even latam becoming lately with far right politics in charge. We are going backwards

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Fri, 05 Dec 2025 01:40:24 GMT

I'm slacking around lately, i broke my strike of art consistency. The book i finished took all my will, washington irving is a dense boring author though from the collections i read Rin Van Winkle is a good one, it took me aback The Legend Of Sleppy Hollow wasn't as good, my expectations were high and the shock was shaking.

I willbe back on putting my pants on to do the stuff i want before college starts, i will be a little annoyed to myself if i waste these barely 2 months left

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Sat, 22 Nov 2025 18:29:13 GMT

I have to get my documents ready for college, i haven't done anything yet i will be seeing my psychologist next tuesday i will get my psychologist certificated to start with, and i will be seeing later.

Yesterday's art expo was cool i heard a saxophonist for a first time and it was magical, i slept soundly last night the get-in-touch with the social enviroment exhausted me. I have in plans to start what i have in mind because the time will pass regardless, i should get my liscense if it weren't because the paperwork is expensive. I'm missing on new words and old ones i used in my daily speech i need to retrieve that somehow

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Mon, 17 Nov 2025 21:18:48 GMT

I made a list of stuff i want to do in the summer before i have to start college, it will cut the summer by a month or so i believe. I want to study politics and draw, read some books, for that i have to disconnect from my cellphone and find the will.

November is at its half the time is passing like crazy, i will start with my stuff any yime soon. Do anyone felt like you are performing in blog sites like tumblr? Is so odd how i can't feel like myself, i can't enjoy it and that will ruin it for me. I'm working on it

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Wed, 12 Nov 2025 15:28:15 GMT

I made a voice entry after months i checked and it was since march i haven't done one i'm kind of astonished, talk to yourself can do wonders and the talk is fun i'm so sure i have the responses to some of my doubts and dows and a bad time letting them sink

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Fri, 31 Oct 2025 19:48:25 GMT

Took a shower after two hard weeks, i and cried in today's session with my psychologist, it was a weird burst of tears, he told me to ask myself where that came from but not to tell him, i did when i left the hospital. Is hard to accept, though, i have lived within that reality all my life i have been very concious on it for a long time, from a very young age, or from a rather young age i shouldn't be thinking those things.

On a long side note, isn't it strange the feeling of realizing over your change throughout the passing days or from one day to another? The switch in the way you do an action and you start doing it more, i don't know i would call it "properly", but surely decent or accustomed at the way it should be done, and it may be part of growing up and i'm sure it is as we change all the time, but noticing like an other one looking at you is an experience to have or to realize it is happening. Having a record of that change for yourself is like a voice recorder, you have it there because you noticed it thoroughly. What's a feeling i have a hard time dealing with is that change means also leaving behind a way to look at things, is like a hard goodbye. I can't get accustomed to it

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